Fannish things, writing, other stuff. Often NSFW. My pronouns are they/them.
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Latest Posts by applesforthis - Page 10
every moment of every day i am thinking about this tiktok
Eeeeeeeee, the SMOOCHES
sweethearts in photo booths (1920s-1960s)
Some people think VG did not die by suicide but instead was the victim of an accidental shooting by some teens playing around with a gun. And that he claimed afterward that he'd done it himself, to protect the kids from being punished. (Wikipedia has an article with sources, for the curious.)
Everything I learn about this person makes me love him more and wish harder that things could have been different for him.
“Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.”
— Vincent Van Gogh
Wow. The patience, kindness and calm communication skills. Outstanding.
From raindovemodel
Ohhhh I really like this take.
What I see over and over is that almost all people want to be participants in storytelling, in some way. People don't only want to be passive. Everyone is an artist, everyone has feelings and wants to share them.
I love that we're like this. <3 <3 <3
💥🙌👏
three years ago today, a new me was born
New Deadloch Fic: In Plain Sight
A slow-build romance leading to polyamory. Rated explicit. Long (84,000 words). Eddie POV. Complete.
Eddie/Dulcie are definitely the main pairing. Eddie/Cath are shown making out once. There is also one Dulcie/Eddie/Cath sex scene at the end but otherwise no Dulcie/Cath or Eddie/Cath is shown (though both are mentioned).
Canon-compliant. Set after the end of the series proper, starting right after Ray’s death. Includes the canon epilogue scene (in which Eddie and Dulcie visit Holly) and then continues after that.
I didn’t like Cath in canon but I think she could get her shit together and be a better person and a better partner, and I’ve leaned into that very hard, while doing my best to also keep her in character.
Important note: the first scene is rough but things don’t stay that way. This is a happy fic overall, with a very happy ending.
See Chapter 1 for content warning.
This was an utter delight to write. Please read and enjoy. I'd love to hear in comments how you respond to it -- all feedback is great, including critique. <3
Lastly, thank you SO MUCH to my absolutely amazing beta, @ratherembarrassing, for help with so many important dialect and character notes. This fic would be such a hot mess without you, and I'm so so grateful for your time and your meticulous attention to detail. <3 <3 <3
This way to the fic :-D
I'm thinking a lot about the subject of racism and fandom recently because I'm about to publish a fic that's written from the perspective of a character of color and I'm white. I feel a lot of caution around that and I want to explicitly invite any BIPOC readers to let me know how my fic lands with you. Your experiences in particular of it are really important to me. <3 (I'm planning to post in about a week, leaving this here in case any readers look me up after/while reading)
Shout out to all the Black ppl that can no longer participate directly in the fandom they love because of the stresses of racism 👍🏾 you contain multitudes of value and I'm sorry that the color of your skin and the power of your voice makes people not want to acknowledge that.
(BETA FOUND!) ISO language beta for a Deadloch fic!
EDIT: Dreams really do come true! An amazing beta has gone over the fic and it will be posted in about a week. Thanks to everyone who helped put us in touch -- go team! :-D
I'm looking for a speaker of Australian English to look over a long fic and point out where I've got the dialect wrong. I'd be happy to return the favor for you if you ever want that; I have excellent attention to detail and I speak a very standard/unmarked US English. If you have other feedback to share about my story I'd love that, but I won't expect it.
STORY NOTES:
Fandom: Deadloch
Pairings: Eddie/Dulcie are definitely the main one. Eddie/Cath are shown making out once. There is also one Dulcie/Eddie/Cath sex scene at the end but otherwise no Dulcie/Cath or Eddie/Cath is shown (though both are mentioned).
Length: long! ~83,000 words.
Rating: explicit. The first 1/3 of the story is UST and pining. The sex scenes all come after that, but there are a lot of them.
Canon-compliant. Set after the end of the series proper, starting right after Ray’s death. Includes the canon epilogue scene (in which Eddie and Dulcie visit Holly) and then continues after that.
I didn’t like Cath in canon but I think she could get her shit together and be a better person and a better partner, and I’ve leaned into that very hard, while doing my best to also keep her in character.
CONTENT WARNINGS:
Trigger warning for gender dysphoria. See spoiler warning if that’s you.
One quick memory of intimate partner violence (the time in canon when Ray tried to strangle Eddie).
All sex scenes are enthusiastically consensual but there's a power imbalance around couple privilege. It’s dealt with in-story.
Expanded trigger warning WITH SPOILER: a character experiences gender dysphoria with triggers around specific sex acts and one specific word. Reference to that character being triggered with past partners, including one brief but pretty painful memory of a sex act that the character wanted at the time but that feels different in hindsight. However, this is a story about trans joy as well; there is a payoff later, and eventually a happy ending for this character.
If you’re interested but on the fence about committing to this, PM me and we can talk about what’s making you hesitate. I will of course credit you when I post my story.