A Delusion Does Not Mean A Person Should Ever Be Dismissed, Brushed Off Or Disregarded.

I always type long messages for you and then leave them there. I’m worried I might accidentally hit send one day.

Feeling evil (just wanna be loved by someone that only has eyes for me)

Get out of my head! Get out!

My final note to you

I still love you. Just not enough to cry about it anymore. Just not enough to ruin my life. You are like… something that I like to look at. And listen to, talk with, joke with, be around. But something I will never have. That’s okay. I am just fine watching you from afar.

Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them

Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were

The shame makes me want to rip my skin off

every time I decide I’m done with you, for some godforsaken reason, I dream about you the same night

life with bpd is always trying to fill a huge hole in your chest. you spend your life looking for a cure that doesn't really exist

I don’t know how to explain it but just being alive causes me pain

The world is too loud, existing is overwhelming, people expect so much more than I can give

I fail at being alive every single day

I feel so ashamed to be so broken

But I don’t know how to be any other way