୨୧ Wish I Had The Type Of 3Đ Where You Forgot About Eating/hated Food. I Count Down Every Hour Until

Just finished reading this book and I really recommend! 🩷⭐️

How I be looking like in 3dblrr

You know for somebody who let's their ed rule their life, I sure do suck at having an ed

I don’t feel proud about throwing my grandma’s food in the trash…. And pretending I ate it….

But I feel like I feel guilty if I eat it and I’ll feel guilty if I don’t…. Might as well not eat something that is carb heavy and fat heavy and I didn’t feel good after eating it yesterday.

I don’t know if I’m over explaining just to make myself feel better about throwing away her cooking…

But I did it so anyway. Going to go watch TV.

You’re so pathetic. Look at yourself—every bite you take, every excuse you make, it’s proof you’re a failure.

Do you think people like you deserve to eat? They don’t. You don’t.

Every time you pick up a fork, you’re choosing to stay worthless. You’re choosing failure over progress, weakness over strength. And for what? A moment of comfort that you’ll hate yourself for afterward?

The hunger you feel? It’s what you deserve for letting yourself get like this in the first place.

It’s not punishment; it’s a reminder.

A reminder that you have work to do.

That you’re still not enough.

That you haven’t earned anything yet—not food, not pride, not the right to look at yourself without disgust.

Don’t you dare give in to your cravings. They don’t care about you. They just want to ruin you.

You’re not allowed to eat again until you’ve earned the right to exist in your own skin.

Not until you’ve suffered enough to make a difference.

The version of yourself you want isn’t built through comfort. She’s built through hunger, through pain, through sacrifice.

So do better.

Be better.

Because right now, you’re nothing. And if you give up again, that’s all you’ll ever be.

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the tt sound that’s like “I can’t laugh just yet, I gotta hold it in”… but make it I can’t grieve just yet, I have to finish my uni

weight loss is simple, not easy.

I ate a lot again… but no binge! And I counted everything!

Breakfast: Egg burrito made with 2 eggs (152), cherry tomatoes (34), bacon (80), and tortilla (193) - with some ketchup (~22)

- Felt really good after eating this, but was missing the spinach (I ran out)

Snack: New years pastries my grandma baked (212)

- I love these so much and I’m really glad I ate some without feeling too guilty.

Lunch: konjac noodles (8), tuna (113), soy sauce (8), and some dried seaweed (30)

- 10/10 amazing yummy delicious

Snack: More pastries (106) and a fun drink (129)

Dinner: More pastries (318), with a salad (6), ham (123) and cheese (56) tortilla wrap (193), and some corn tortilla chips (158)

- I really regret eating the tortilla chips, I didn’t even really enjoy them.

Snack: Gummy bears (68)

- Tried these for the first time they have stevia sweetener. My only problem with them is that they are not nearly sour enough!! Why do they call them sour gummies!!

Total: 2010cal 👎

I also drank literally like 3litres of tea today because I was so hungry….

What happened? You used to be in control.