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“Do what you have to do until you can do what you want to do.”
— Oprah Winfrey
“Nobody will stop you from creating. Do it tonight. Do it tomorrow. That is the way to make your soul grow - whether there is a market for it or not!”
— Kurt Vonnegut
You taught me a softer way to love. Which is to say I have always loved like wildfire. Always loved vicious. All or nothing. Overwhelming and unbearable and so hard it hurts. Always loved a war of desire leaving my heart a ravaged battlefield with thick scar tissue in the shape of words they never said. But we burnt out. Which is to say I fell out of love with you in the summer sun in the middle of a movie theatre parking lot and it had nothing to do with you. And I did not realize this for years in the aftermath of this heartbreak. It had nothing to do with you. For you had always been you. It was me. For it is always me and the moment I am disillusioned regarding exactly what I am deserving of. Regarding exactly what you are offering and what I had misinterpreted your open palms and open smile for. Which is to say I fell out of love with you to save myself. In an act of self-preservation. To keep loving you would have killed me. So I stopped. Which is an oversimplification of the process of withdrawal but I did. I fell out of love with you. And I am better for it.
Which is to say when I did, touching you ached less. Your name in my mouth didn't sting so much. Every time you talked about someone else it never cut deep enough to leave a mark. And then it stopped cutting at all. And then I started being happy for you. And now, all this time later, I suppose when I call you my friend I mean it. Which is to say I never text you first anymore and it isn't even on purpose. Which is to say we talk when we have time, usually when you are home from school for the break, and I laugh like renewal, but never with enough joy that it threatens to rip my seams. Which is to say I have not fallen in love with anyone since you but I'm okay with that. I know I could. Which is to say I do not rearrange plans when you call and I do not particularly care about seeming intelligent to you anymore. Or beautiful. Or talented. Or worthy. I don't worry about keeping you coming back. Because I know you'll return for us eventually. And we'll pick up where we left off. Like we cannot help but meet again where you last left the person I used to be.
But every time we are together for more than a handful of moments I am in love with you again. And my heartbeat syncs with yours. And when you look at me I want you to keep looking. And when you touch me I want you to keep touching. But you never do. And I am practiced in this. So this time you walk me all the way home and it doesn't even get my hopes up. This time you sing to me at my doorstep and I do not flinch. Remind myself it is not your fault your kindness works like this. That this is just who you are. Because I will walk inside and peek out the glass for you to look back and you won't. And I will remember in the reflection that I am no one special to you. And I will fall out of love again, just like I have done a dozen times before with you. And I will go upstairs and take a shower humming the lyrics to the song you last played me and when I step out of the stream of water, my desire will be washed down the drain. And I will cease loving you until next time.
You taught me a softer way to love. Because I think you taught me there are some people we will never fall all the way out of love with. And that can be okay sometimes. As long as you are not destroying yourself with longing. Some things cannot be helped.
~ #3 : reflections on falling out of unrequited love with him
“It’s sad isn’t it? I once thought worlds of you and now you’re just another lesson.”
— Beau Taplin
“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.”
— Haruki Murakami
“Thinking is difficult, that’s why most people judge.”
— C.G. Jung
“You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending.”
— C.S. Lewis (via marijuanamodels)
“Don’t wait for things to get easier, simpler, better. Life will always be complicated. Learn to be happy right now. Otherwise, you’ll run out of time.”
— Unknown
“If you’re happy in a dream, does that count?”
— Arundhati Roy
“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”
— Daniell Koepke
“Don’t wait too long. Life takes unexpected turns, and we don’t always have the time we think we have.”
— Unknown
“I keep wondering, how many people do you need to be, before you can become yourself.”
— Iain S. Thomas
“Life is that which must overcome itself again and again.”
— Friedrich Nietzsche
“I love that word. Forever. I love that forever doesn’t exist, but we have a word for it anyway, and use it all the time. It’s beautiful and doomed.”
— Viv Albertine
Why Wonder Woman's sequel fails where Captain America's succeeded?
Why Wonder Woman's sequel fails where Captain America's succeeded? #wonderwoman84 #captainamerica #marvel #DC
Wonder Woman 1984 becomes another loss for DCEU as the movie is a huge letdown and quite frankly doesn’t make a lot of sense. Now before I get into spoilers and for those who haven’t watched this movie, the best compliment I can give this movie is that it’s slightly better than Captain Marvel. There are many plot holes and the runtime is too long but overall a mediocre movie. Only watch this if…
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Hunt for the Best Christmas Movie
Hunt for the Best Christmas Movie
Yes, it’s that time of the year. The year when almost every studio tries its hand for the battle of the best Christmas movie of the year and to leave a legacy for years to come. Some of the greatest Christmas movies are rewatched and replayed every year with the same level of enthusiasm and love as watching it for the first time and even the ones that were panned at their release were later…
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“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”
— John Green (via quotemadness)
“I owe myself the biggest apology for putting up with what I didn’t deserve.”
— Unknown
“We are, as a species, addicted to story. Even when the body goes to sleep, the mind stays up all night, telling itself stories.”
— Jonathan Gottschall
'Ted Lasso' Review: Apple Tv+'s series is exactly what we need right now
‘Ted Lasso’ Review: Apple Tv+’s series is exactly what we need right now
Apple Tv+’s Ted Lasso is a half-hour comedy which is based on a character created for a series of NBC Sports Premiere League soccer promos and even though it has the time and genre of comedy with its name, it’s a drama at heart and a brilliant one at that.
The story is about an American football coach being signed as the manager of an English Premier League team without having the knowledge…
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“Don’t you ever get the feeling that all your life is going by and you are not taking advantage of it?”
— Ernest Hemingway
Disney's Mulan Review: Better than Lion King
Disney’s Mulan Review: Better than Lion King
Walt Disney Studios
When I first saw the trailer of the movie I was excited as it looked fantastic with such a great cast and action and since I hadn’t seen the 1998 original, I decided to give this one a chance. Even after the disappointments of Lion King live-action remake, I waited with my resolve to watch this first and then the animated one so as not to be biased in my review.
When…
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Almost human
The moon is a loyal companion. It never leaves. It's always there, watching, steadfast, knowing us in our light and dark moments, changing forever just as we do. Every day it's a different version of itself. Sometimes weak and wan, sometimes strong and full of light. The moon understands what it means to be human. Uncertain. Alone. Cratered by imperfections.
— Tahereh Mafi, Shatter Me
“Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile. Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your souls. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
— Unknown
Sunsets we always liked because they only happen once and go away. "But, Lena, that's sad." No, if the sunset stayed and we got bored, that would be a real sadness.
— Ray Bradbury, Dandelion Wine (Green Town, #1)
“I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. And sometimes, when I did a really good job of pretending, I even fooled myself.”
— Ruta Sepetys (via quotemadness)
