I'M ALIVE ;0; Happy Monday! Work's Been Crazy, But Hopefully This Big Post Makes Up For My Absence 🙇

“the met gala is the primary symbol of all that is wrong in society” is a pretty conservative take

A Wolf Among the Roses

[...] the mother, says about her son, "You got his sweet ways" when she sees the same kindness in her son that his father had.

— "Beloved" by Toni Morrison

Some of yall want to feel politically justified in bullying women and don’t give a flying fuck about examining misogyny and fatphobia in pop culture or in medical systems.

Some of yall will shake your heads at early 2000s tabloid harassment of famous women (as an example) and then do no actual introspection into your own behavior.

Like sorry, you’re not valid in attacking women’s bodies whose personal lives you have no actual insight into.

"stop commenting on actress's bodies" nah actually I think I will continue to comment on the fact that since the rise of ozempic every second actress looks like she's about to blow away in a strong wind because I lived through heroin chic and normalised eating disorders and insane body expectations the FIRST fucking time and saw the damage it did so I'm personally not going to stay silent and let choice feminism make extreme weight loss "acceptable" just because tiktok has convinced some of yall that any choice a woman makes is Valid just because she's a fucking woman like are you all fucking serious right now

I need to stop watching/reading media that hurts me. Fuck.

Would appreciate any recommendations that aren't horrifically depressing.

Dan Stevens in the 3rd act -

Portrait Commission❤️🐉

Baela the Brave and Jacaerys the Just; Lord and lady of the seven kingdoms❤️ I was asked to depict Baela and Jacaerys (had he survived) post dance of the dragons and had a lot of free rein so that was fun!

Referenced my lady jane, SapphireAndSage (Etsy) and EnchantedTudorRose (Etsy).

tbh alicent being a shit mother is such an important thing to me. all of her relationship with motherhood.

since i could talk i always said i didn't want children. the adults laughed at me everytime, this stupid little girl, saying i just have to wait. it'll change when i get older. i'll see the appeal, apparently. of course i don't see the appeal still, no matter how old i am. but i noticed how assumed it was of me, expected even, that i didn't know shit and there's some secret parental gene that would manifest.

that's young alicent holding little crying helaena and wondering why she doesn't feel anything. if she's deficient in some way. if maybe she can make herself do it long enough, or hard enough, she'll settle in. and guess what? she fails. she doesn't settle in. she grows to love her children in time, they came out of her, of course she loves them, but she never gets better at handling them. with no help from either her husband or her father, she fails even harder.

my mom, who always dreamed of children, told me how scared and disoriented she was when i was born (her first). all the books she read didn't mean shit in that moment. and she's a happy mother, one of the best parents i know, but she worked SO HARD for it. saying that's just her maternal nature is directly spitting on all the blood and guts she poored into this. it's a hard-won satisfying job when you want it, it's hell on earth when you don't.

:3

i feel like so many people misunderstand redemption arcs. they’re not about forgiving past actions. they’re not about softening previous behavior. redemption arcs are about realizing past behavior was heinous and resolving to be better, do better. that’s why so many redemption arcs fall apart upon close scrutiny.