One Of The Biggest Things That Keeps Me From Gorging Myself On Food Is This Picture. My Appetite Disappears

am i am angel?

And the thing about Shauna, and really all the survivors but I think most glaringly in Shauna, is that even though she was never very present with Callie or Jeff and even though she always had secrets she did convince herself she moved on. Adult Shauna in s1 would not go hunt down the daughter of Hanna, because it had been years since she’d even spoken to another survivor other than Tai. Adult Shauna is regressing back into violence and manipulation and loneliness because she’s scared. In the past months she has seen two of her friends die, has been blackmailed and stalked (at least she believed so), and has been forced into interacting with the wilderness. Her friends tried to hunt her and kill her just like they did in the wilderness!!! She’s regressing because the only way she knows how to deal with fear and loss of control is to take control back by any means, especially through violence. Because she’s a heavily traumatized woman, not because she’s been hiding some sadistic evil side for 2 seasons. She’s forgetting that she’s not just a girl in the woods forced into butchering her friends for survival.

I feel like I'm goin' nuts every time I see a post that says "oh they were all supposed to be insane cannibals but now only Shauna is like that and everyone else is just scared of her." No, they literally just condemned Coach Scott to death, tortured him because of a gas-huffing prophecy, ate him, and danced around his severed head like 3 episodes ago. Only Natalie objected to this on any meaningful level, and she was ostracized and punished for it.

The reason they're freaked out about Mari is because she's one of them, instead of an outsider. Literally, in the finale, they make a distinction between killing "enemies" and spilling their own blood- this is the line that some of the girls aren't willing to cross. That doesn't make them not villainous, or violent, or cannibalistic! It's actually not "better" to display some guy's head on a spike just because he's Not One Of Us. Shauna is terrifying because she's unwilling to make that distinction- she literally interrupts Van and Tai's plot to give Hannah the queen! Which they rationalized because she wasn't one of "them." And, in the adult timeline, Taissa decides that Shauna is the problem because Van dies, when approximately 1 day ago she was considering hunting down random people to murder on Van's behalf. It's easy to rationalize violence when it's not happening to people you care about, which is the brutal philosophical bedrock of civilization. The one taboo that most of the Yellowjackets are unwilling to break is killing the people you love, and Shauna has had her ability to love stripped away to nothing.

Winin’ and dinin’

…drinkin’ and drivin’

Excessive buyin’

…overdose and dyin’

Top canonical events in a girl's life:

1. Listening to Lana del Rey for the first time

2. Locking yourself in your room all the time

3. Trying at some point to fit in with a group but just can't

4. Feeling awkward around boys

5. Daydreaming

6. Not being talkative

7. Obsessing over some actor who could be your grandfather

8. Ruining your sleep schedule to get more alone time

9. Tumblr and girlblogging

10. Feeling like no one really knows you

11. Feeling lost in a group of friends

when i say i like older men, i don’t mean “dom daddies” but pathetic, workaholic, emotionally distant, depressed, repressed freaks who’ll get embarrassed to be seen out with me in public bc i’m so visibly younger than him

Me next plsplspls