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Porn tapes and masturbation

After Bredna finished our affair I was again alone. Still virgin, althouhg expierienced so many hour with my mouth on a pussy. Still "one minute handjob cummer." 19 years old boy graduating college with high sexual energy and no opportunity to relase it with a woman.

I discovered porn films. There were no internet and online videos back then, but there was access to video tapes. I watched everything I could put my hand on. And masturbated... In Brenda hand I couldn't last more than a minute. Masturbating myself I was able to have fun for hours. Still dreaming of her pussy and merciful hand, but coming to terms with being pussy free.

Some of my friends in the dorm were bragging about girls pussies and mouths. How they fucked them. How they finished in their mouths. I was recalling all my sex with Brenda and masturbating to the porn films.

I was fascinated with what I saw. All these girls (till today I remember Laura Sinclair) fucking and sucking men, being taken anally or double penetrated, always being flooded with sperm on their pussies, bodies or faces. All these men with huge cocks who could fuck for hours and always sprouting liters of cum on their partners.

I compared myself to them. I never thought about my size or quantity of cum, but porn tapes changed it. I was average long (16,5cm), average thick, medicore cummer with no ability to last longer than a minute in a girl hand. I was still a virgin and after what I saw I knew I will never be able to compete with these guys.

I was an excellent licker - thats what Brenda tought me. But she never let my cock near her pussy, although many guys fucked her hard.

Brenda and the porn tapes helped me to understand who I was. I was beta boy, although I was not ready yet to accept it.

Even more.

Experienced: I am always a bit worried after I have been letting the whole gang fuck me.

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Experienced: When you are too horny 🙆🏼‍♀️

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