I Wish You Kinder, Softer Days That Put Your Heart At Ease

do u ever miss your own energy. like damn what happened to me

Back from another mental health crisis that lasted a month.

WHY / WHY ME (repeated)

Socially I've ruined myself by being insane and having bpd like symptoms and now I'm just rotting inside while snacking like crazy and I'm not sure how you're supposed to be after electroshock therapy but I'm definitely not the same anymore. I can't hold conversations or anything like that without them being horribly awkward.

I'm sorry to all my friends old and new and loved ones I didn't mean to turn out insane and irksome or bothersome. I wish I had been able to keep my reputation when my last relationship ended. I've done so much I wish I hadn't. It'll never be okay or the same.

I'm back from rehab and had electroshock therapy and I'm not allowed on my computer for a while but that's OK. I feel like a washed up has been that's just a mistake with no friends but it'll pass one day. Probably.