“Even In Jannah, The Source Of Ultimate Happiness Is Not Material Wealth. It Is The Sight Of Allah.”

اللَّهُمَّ أَحْسَنْتَ خَلْقِي فَأَحْسِنْ خُلُقِي

O Allah, as you have made my form excellent, make my character excellent.

Source: Musnad Aḥmad 23871, Grade: Sahih

If you are studying the deen and not realising your own ignorance then your ilm is not benefittng you. If it is only increasing you in arrogance then your intention is not sincere. Re-evaluate and start again

"I have discovered from my own experience that whenever someone increases in knowledge, they discover how much greater their ignorance is"

[The souls journey after death Ibnul-Qayyim Rahimahullah page 37]

Thinking well about Allāh is a part of excellent worship of Allāh.

The Prophet ﷺ, Jāmi’ at-Tirmidhī #3970

There is no one coming from the stars to brighten your darkness, be the light.

We live in what-ifs & we die certainly