Sometimes U Need A Weighted Blanket To Flatten The Emotions Into A Thin Little Pancake So They Don’t

Autistic experience or everyone experience?

I was only diagnosed as an adult, so I’ve been thinking back and wondering if specific sensory experiences are more of an everyone experience or autistic experience. Let me know if you have felt these and whether or not y’all have/are autistic.

-vitamin filled drinks of any sort burn your throat

-honey in tea does not soothe the throat it makes it dry

-volume of public toilets flushing is unbearable

-there is not a single type of comfortable clothing tag. They are all evil

-squishy/slimy with chunks is an abominable food texture, which makes anything from porridge to pie to stew very hard to manage

-tennis shoes have to be tied the exact same tightness

-leaning against warm store deli cases and cars pleases the inner lizard greatly

-stuffing urself in a very small space where you are hidden and gently squished is Very Good (unless ur claustrophobic, which I am not)

-have to climb. I am in a tree. Wedged in the top of a doorway. On the roof. Somewhere I haven’t been told not to go.. anyway my parents tossed me at rock climbing gyms

-fridge is good hum. Lights are bad hum.

I could list more but I shan’t rn

I am built for digging in moss and making art and exploring rivers and befriending friendly wildlife and giving out daisy chains and origami

Not like. Standing for half the day and trying to read minds and make repetitive motions while over 50 feet from windows.

Western WA things from a long term resident:

Cause eastern wa is basically a different state

… note that while I have lived here for over a decade I’m just talking my experience

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> people who live in the more rural areas find it real strange when there’s continuous smog. Like fog happens all the time but usually that brown haze obscuring the mountains doesn’t last long bc the rain deletes it.

> some people love Seattle and some people hate what Seattle currently is and will rant about it

> The sand is typically relatively coarse and greyish. I went somewhere with kids-picture-tan sand recently and was surprised that that actually exists. Softer sand is usually only in the actual water in areas with more clay.

> We really don’t use umbrellas often, and it’s not so much stubbornness as it is that hoodies exist and no one really walks long distances unless they’re in a city center. There aren’t sidewalks, so you only have to deal with the rain between your transport and the door of your destination.

> if you plant mint, berries, bamboo, or blow dandelions, you are dedicating yourself to having it for life

> ppl are often very careful about food crumbs or they have ants. Sometimes both.

> there are rabbits, deer, raccoons, coyotes, and opossums. You’re gonna see or hear a lot of them, some more alive than others

> people say bag like flag/had/amp. It’s strange and unusual to hear someone say “bayg” but some people do.

> older adults and some of their kids will add an unnecessary “s” to the names of places and I don’t know why (Haggens, safeways, bartells)

> some of those same adults say “worshington” and the rest of us consider them instant enemies.

> during like 2/3 of the year there are bees everywhere. There is gonna be a dumb black jack in your house. It seems like a hive lives in every coffee stand. Wasps have taken up residence by your shed.

> speaking of coffee stands it’s unbelievable leaving Washington and not having coffee stands/shops/bars everywhere. Also where is the lotus?

> Every group of adults u join are gonna have some constant plaid wearers. That’s just the way it is.

> snow plows don’t go everywhere. This isn’t Chicago. We do not prepare. The plows get the arterials and highways and that’s about it unless ur somewhere real fancy.

> you can find clay like… everywhere if you know what it looks like.

> trying to look something up in your state and the results bringing up wa dc is infuriating

> people can get very excited when it’s clear enough to see rainier. For real though you can see rainier, the Olympics, and the cascades from the highway in many places

I am here to admit…

I never recovered from haz cheeseburger. I still say hewwow to ppl I know. 😔

… I also haven’t recovered from pop cat

Me, minding my entire business:

My brain: “Rockin.’ Rockin’ and rollin.’ Round down that beach I was strollin’”

TW : rant/dump

I’m not fishing for anything, I just really needed to say this, and I’m not willing to put it on anyone I know. Please don’t read this if you’re unwell. I don’t want to add to anyone else’s struggle

I just needed to get off my chest,

This couple weeks have been… not good.

My grandma has been making sui/homi threats when she can’t get more pain meds, my grandpa is obsessed with conspiracy politics and won’t keep it to himself, my mom depends on me emotionally

My shelf came off the wall and broke my file box and shattered a glass frame all over the floor

I spilled soda so incredibly that it got on my carpet, walls, floor, the bottom of my bed (?), my printer, my extension cord, my yarn basket, and so many other places I keep finding

I ruined an entire load of clothes with chapstick, it will not come out, and my mom tossed them

My air purifier itself has started smelling like mold despite upkeep

My windowsill is covered in mold and my plaster is cake and even my carpenter uncle can’t figure out my Schrödinger studs

Because of all these things I’ve been having to fix or account for on top of my medical bills and car bills and insurance bills I can’t even quite make it paycheck to paycheck

I don’t have the time or money to take care of procedures I’m supposed to have done already

My doctor says I’m in the chronic pain of someone twice my age and that my job isn’t going to work for me in the long term and my job is trying to shove me out but I can’t find another job that won’t kill my mental health, physical health, or support me financially

Im just stuck,

I’m stuck.

Why worry about using slang from the newest generation? You have free will. Use slang from all generations as desired, coward.

New Zelda Game Thoughts

So. I think that having an actual Zelda-player zelda game is cool. But… am I the only one who feels a little… put out? That it’s such a cutesy style? Like don’t get me wrong, I love cute stuff. But for the first and only Zelda based game, I kinda hoped they would have gone for something that gives Zelda a little more credit.

It feels almost like it’s making fun of her abilities, in a way. Like if she’s going to be the main player, it can’t be serious.

I’m sure that’s not what they meant, and it’s fun to see how excited everyone is. I just…

So anyway a nurse made me cry today