Is It That Weird That I Don’t Fall In Love ?

Is it that weird that I don’t fall in love ?

I don’t know how or why but I feel like I cannot love someone even though I really want to experience relationship and love with a person. I had crushes, I even got one right now but I know that I don’t want to be in a relationship with that person because it won’t work I am not girlfriend material!

I love the idea of getting close and share personal values and ideas with somebody but my awkward, unconfident and anxious personality will never allow me so.

I know this but it’s still bother me… sometimes.

When my friend are talking about their relationship and that becoming an adult I still feel like a child who has not live, experience or open themselves. I feel like I am an immature women in a world of growing girlfriend, fiancé and wife a goal I will never reach, never touch.