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Conflicted: Pt. 8🎀

i have 2 chapters for yall today i’m posting the other one later tonight ;)

Maddy P.O.V

I don’t really remember what happened after my breakdown at the beach because I had fallen asleep on the way back to the apartment.

And when I woke up I was tucked into my bed with the lights closed.

I looked around for my alarm clock to check the time and it read 11:00 pm.

I was out for that long?

I peeked around and saw some light coming from underneath my door meaning someone was awake in the kitchen.

Although I didn’t hear any noises I figured whoever it was, was probably just watching MTV.

Duff usually stayed up till 2 in the morning before calling it a night so it could most definitely be him or…..Izzy.

I stood up and ripped my door open, expecting to see my brother seated on the couch, which he was, along with Izzy.

They were both watching tv silently, as if they had had an argument , and neither was acknowledging the other.

“Finally. You're awake," Duff said, not in the least bit excited to see me.

Strange.

“Come and sit here, Maddy," he urged, patting the empty space next to him on the couch that was far away from Izzy.

"W-What's wrong?" I questioned, stealing a look at Izzy, who refused to move his gaze away from the television screen.

I could tell by his face something was wrong. That face he always made when he was angry was very visible right now.

“I’m only gonna ask you this once and you better fucking tell me the damn truth Maddy Elizabeth Mckagan.”

“Are you and Izzy fucking?”

“What! Why would you say something like that.” I squealed jumping up from my seat catching Izzy’s attention.

“We’re definitely not fucking Duff.” Izzy barked lighting up a cigarette.

“Then what’s going on! I’m not an idiot like you both may think. I can hear whispers and even the tiniest of noises from my bedroom.”

“At first I thought you would be sneaking Angela in every night when everyone would be sleeping. But then I woke up to pee one night and I peeked outside to see the action and I see Maddy on top of you!” he snapped pushing Izzy.

“I’m not sleeping with Maddy, if you want the honest truth but I did fool around with her.”

“How far did you do with her?”

“Duff please let it go-

“You have no right to be talking right now Maddy. Now let him finish.” Duff threatened making me sit back down and accept what was to come.

“We just messed around like y’know rubbing on each other and shit.” Izzy stated attempting to hide the smirk that was threatening to appear.

Duff was very quiet for a bit and placed his hands on his hips like he was thinking about what to do next.

I could see how angry he was by the way his chest was moving up and down in big breaths.

“I want you out of my fucking apartment. Fucking now!” my brother yelled grabbing Izzy by the shirt and shoving him into the door.

“Duff stop please. I-I love him.”

“You what?” he asked very quietly.

“I love Izzy.” I mumbled staring at him with glossy eyes.

“I can’t believe this right now. My sister and one of my best friends going behind my back like this.”

“I can’t even stand to look at you.” he glared with disgust.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for it to happen I swear.” I cried grabbing onto my brothers arm.

He shoved me off his arm and stomped off into his room slamming the door so loud that a few of the kitchen decor fell and broke.

“Fuck this.” was all Izzy said before leaving out the door and leaving me standing there a mess all by myself.

“Izzy wait!” I yelled chasing after him outside the apartment.

“Izzy please just wait.”

“Maddy just leave me alone.” he huffed slightly annoyed by me stopping him.

“No I won’t. I won’t leave you alone until you tell me why your being so mean to me. All I said was I love you.”

“You don’t love me. You’re only 16. I know what it’s like to feel that way towards someone and I don’t feel it about you.”

“I’m sorry.” he said before turning around and leaving.

“I’m sorry.” rang throughout my head and it just felt like my heart got stabbed a thousand times over and over again.

Izzy P.O.V

Fuck I felt like the biggest asshole on earth after saying that lie to Maddy.

The truth was that I had never felt this way about any girl before and it scared me to even think about it.

But I did love Maddy. She just couldn’t know. I would rather have her hate me than know I love her too.

Because once she finds out she’ll want to be in a relationship and expect things out of me like a normal boyfriend and I can’t do that for her.

My whole life I’ve never had an actual faithful relationship and I wasn’t so sure if I was ready to give all of that up.

Maddy was the perfect girl anyone could ever ask for but out of Duff’s sake I was going to stay away from her.

As much as I loved Maddy I felt the same way about Duff.

He was like a brother to me and I couldn’t continue on this way with his little sister if he felt so harshly about it.

And I was worried about him kicking me out of the band even though he didn’t have that much power, lately Axl had been a major asshole towards me so it wouldn’t be a shock if I found out I was kicked out just because of this.

The best option for now was to stay away from Maddy at all costs.

guys i found an interview of axl saying girl’s boyfriends would come up to him saying their gf went up to the hotel room w izzy & asking when is she coming bck & axl would say idk but not right now

like hello?? we been knew he was a man whore🤣🤣🤣🤣(i still want him)

Conflicted : Pt. 7🎀

Maddy P.O.V

Axl joined us a while later. It was peaceful but then Axl mentioned something about rehearsal and Izzy started arguing with him about it.

And instead of helping, Duff turned up the radio even more to drown them out leaving me stuck in the middle.

"Guys stop please!" I pleaded pushing them away from both sides.

“Sorry, Maddy. But my friend Izzy here has an issue with my singing, and I need to figure out why." Axl argued.

“That's because everytime something doesn't go your way you disappear and our fucking song goes unfinished!" Izzy yelled.

“Izzy stop.” I begged, pleading with eyes.

“Whatever.” he scoffed turning the other way to face his window.

Axl gave me a strange look, glancing at both of us before shrugging it off.

“Axl how are you and Erin?" I asked, not sure how else to start a conversation.

"She’s fine. Why do you care?"

“I was just asking." I said, rolling my eyes.

“So did you enjoy my L.A tour, or would you like another private one?" he grinned, scooting closer towards me.

I noticed Izzy shift in his seat when he heard Axl, so I played into it.

I laughed and twirled my hair with my finger before responding.

“Yes I would like that."

“Are you gonna wear that sexy outfit of yours that you wore last time?” he smirked.

“Okay that’s enough Axl. Leave the poor girl alone.” Izzy spoke.

“What’s wrong with you? You’re just jealous because you want her.” he retorted making Izzy scrunch his brows.

“I don’t!”

“Save it Izzy. I can tell the way you look at her you have the hots for your best friend’s little sissy.” Axl mocked.

“What are you gonna do about it?” Izzy asked putting an arm around me.

“Fuck off. She doesn’t want you.” Axl barked pulling me into his arms.

“She doesn’t want you either!” Izzy spat yanking me back towards him.

“STOP.” I yelled causing Duff to slam the brakes.

“What’s going on!” Duff yelled turning around to face Izzy, Axl and I.

“Nothing.” we all said in unison.

“Okay well not that any of you were paying attention but we’re here.”

We all climbed out of the car wanting nothing more than some fresh air.

Axl and Duff went running towards the beach but Izzy pulled me back behind a shed and shoved his lips on mine hungrily.

“Stay away from Axl.” he whispered pulling off my lips.

“You’re not my boyfriend.” I huffed crossing my arms.

“It doesn’t matter. Your mine.”

Duff P.O.V

I wasn’t a dumbass as everyone around me thought.

I saw the way Izzy looked at Maddy and I intended on letting him know to back off.

If there was one thing I was keen on, it was keeping family away from any of the guys.

Including Izzy.

He wasn’t exactly boyfriend material. And I saw the way he treated women like they didn’t mean anything to him.

I’m not saying I’m any better but I know I’m better than Izzy regarding women.

He didn’t even flinch when Angela was being shared between the guys.

It was a normal occurrence to him and I wasn’t gonna let him turn Maddy into a slut.

“Hey man you coming or what?” Izzy asked coming up behind me.

“Yeah. Hey Iz can I ask you a question?”

“Sure what’s up.”

“Are you seeing Maddy behind me back?” I asked scanning his face for any reaction.

“Maddy? Come on Duff she’s like a little kid.” he joked.

I saw Maddy listening to us out of the corner of my eye and once Izzy turned around she stomped off looking pretty upset.

What was that about?…

“Okay. I’m just making sure bro.” I told him giving a pat on the shoulder before joining Axl in the water.

Maddy P.O.V

I trudged around the water looking out to the waves when I saw Duff talking to Izzy with his arms crossed and brows furrowed.

“Are you seeing Maddy behind my back?” Duff asked giving Izzy a stern look.

But instead of admitting to it, Izzy gave a big laugh and shrugged it off calling me a little kid.

What the hell does that mean?

I stomped off annoyed by the attitude I was receiving from his and went to sit on the bench which was located on the other side of the beach.

This day sucked and I just wanted to go home and forget about all of this mess.

Clearly Izzy didn’t care enough to tell Duff about our relationship and I didn’t want to lie to my brother about it either.

So I decided I was going to call it quits with Iz.

I felt like that was the right thing to do.

“Maddy.”

“What do you want Izzy.” I sighed in defeat.

I quickly wiped the leftover tears off my face and scooted over allowing him to have a seat.

“I know you heard the conversation with Duff.”

“It’s fine. You did what you had to for your friendship.”

“I know but it was fucked that you had to hear that and so I’m sorry.”

“What exactly do you want me to say though?” I spat back.

“I just heard the guy I’m in love with talking in such a demeaning way about me.”

“You love me?” he softly asked pushing my hair out of the way so he could see my face.

“I don’t know what to say.”

“Just tell me you love me. Even if you don’t mean it please.” I begged letting a tear fall down my cheek.

“Fuck Maddy.” he shouted.

“You don’t even know what love is. You don’t know what you’re talking about.” he urged.

“This is humiliating. I have to leave.” I bawled getting as far away from him as far as I could.

“Wait.” he yelled but I kept running until I bumped into Axl.

“What’s wrong?” he asked pulling me into a hug.

“I-Izzy. Doesn’t love m-me.” I sobbed crying into his bare chest with my salty tears.

“He’s no good for you. I’ve known him ever since we were little. He’s never gonna change.”

“Maddy. What happened!” Duff called out grabbing my face between his hands.

“Nothing. C-can we go home?”

“Of course. Let’s go right now.”

Conflicted: Pt 6 🎀

A/N: i couldn’t sleep so I wrote this & now i’m sleepy asf so it helped , also i hope u all enjoy !!!<333 also this one is a bit longer than other chapters i’ve written!!!

Maddy P.O.V

I spent the whole night tossing and turning unable to sleep thinking about what happened between Izzy and I at the diner.

I knew I had to tell Duff one way or another but I wasn’t so sure if that was a conversation I was ready to have.

Duff convinced our mom to let me stay here in L.A under his care and I knew indefinitely I would be shipped back home the same day if he found out about Iz and I.

My pillow wasn’t doing any justice to helping me sleep either.

I huffed and got up from my bed opening the door to grab a pillow from the couch where Izzy was sleeping.

“Iz? Are you asleep?” I whispered looking at Izzy’s lifeless body in front of me or so it seemed.

I guess that’s how he slept at night.

Like a corpse.

“No. I’m wide awake Maddy.” he mocked turning on his other side away from the peering light through my cracked room door.

“Do you have a pillow I could borrow. I can’t sleep with the one I have.” I pestered placing both hands on his shoulder that was upright at his current sleeping position.

He turned back around to face me with his squinted expression and grabbed a pillow from behind to extend it out towards me.

“Thanks.” I squealed eagerly grabbing out to it.

“Not so fast.”

“You’re gonna have to take it. If you want it so badly.”

“Izzy come on. I’m sleepy.” I whined lightly stomping my foot.

“Hey I was too! You woke me up so you have to do what I say. It’s the rule.” he remarked.

“Fine.”

I went forward and tried to grab the pillow when he grabbed my waist and pulled me onto him.

“Stop. Duff will wake up.” I squealed scrambling to get out of his strong grip.

“I’ll let you go if you give me a kiss.” he smirked.

“Just one kiss Iz.” I strictly replied.

“Fine by me. As long as I get a kiss.”

I carefully leaned in, angling my lips to his, when he slammed into mine. I was about to pull away when Izzy placed his blanket over both of us, and the warmth was too appealing to leave.

I decided to get comfortable and straddled him while he inserted his hot tongue into my mouth.

He let go of my lips but moved on to my neck, leaving little hickeys against it.

When he discovered my sweet spot, I began whimpering, and he sighed into my neck sucking harder.

I couldn't help but let out a tiny sigh and involuntarily began grinding myself against him, causing him to breathe out and hungrily return to my lips.

He briefly stopped kissing me for a second before continuing and stopping again.

"Maddy, do you know how to tongue kiss or do you just not enjoy my tongue?" he questioned, gazing at me strangely.

How can I tell him that I have absolutely no experience with boys? I don't even know how to kiss correctly.

The only reason I got away with kissing him before was because it never got too serious.

“Uhm I-I’ve never really kissed a boy before.” I mumbled hoping he didn’t really understand what I said.

“I’m also a virgin.” I cringed wondering what his reaction would be.

“That’s pretty obvious now.” he said, looking at me with a puzzled expression.

"What's wrong?" I asked, immediately convinced that he would not want me anymore given his extensive experience.

"If you're a virgin then I can't be with you."

"What do you mean?" I asked, suddenly becoming defensive.

“I don't want you to loose something as special as that to someone like me which will eventually happen if you keep this up with me." he groaned, pushing my body off of him.

"Izzy, why are you acting like I can’t think for myself?”

"You can’t make that decision for me." I spat strongly.

“I’m not good for you, Maddy. You deserve someone like yourself.”

“Not a junkie," he conceded.

“Can’t say I’m surprised.” I retorted immediately regretting coming out here for a pillow in the first place.

“You’re right. I don’t deserve a junkie like you.”

I ran straight into my room leaving the pillow behind and vowing to never talk to Izzy again.

Why did I even think that he was different. Maybe because of his nonchalant demeanor it just never seemed like he was using.

But now I knew I couldn’t even trust Izzy. I never had a great relationship with drugs. Not that I did any but I saw the way they affected Duff.

That was all the reason I needed to hate them.

The next morning I woke up ready to ignore Izzy and see his reaction but to my surprise he was doing the same.

He acted as if I wanted even there.

“Sis. Do you wanna come with Iz and I to the beach?”

I was desperately wanting a day all to myself to go to the beach but I couldn’t be left alone in such a big city.

And the company wasn’t exactly the ideal people I thought of spending a relaxing day with since Duff and Izzy were the most chaotic duo I knew but I sucked it in and agreed to come along.

“Oh and Axl is coming too.” Duff added before disappearing into his room to grab some things.

Perfect.

Axl coming was the best thing to happen ever since my mom let me travel to L.A.

I could use Axl to make Izzy jealous and realize that he wanted to be with me as badly as I wanted him.

My closet was awaiting and so were the cute bikini’s I decided to pick for the beach.

Duff wouldn’t be too pleased but I didn’t care because the whole plan was to make Izzy jealous and I was willing to do anything for that.

“I’m ready.” I told Duff coming out of the room in tiny shorts and my red bikini that I had bought from a sale at the mall here.

“Aren’t you gonna wear a shirt over that Maddy.” Duff groaned rolling his eyes at Izzy’s sudden behavior change.

“No. I think I’m pretty comfy.” I smiled walking past them both and out the door.

When we got in the car Duff had been trudging a huge bag full of soccer balls, volleyballs and other junk he had wanted to do at the beach.

“Duff I’m not sitting in the back with this stuff!” I stomped looking at the backseat which was halfway covered leaving little room for me to sit.

“Okay fine. You’ll have to sit with Maddy then Iz.” he said turning to look at Izzy.

Izzy didn’t say anything but nodded helping Duff push the stuff in the passenger seat before he closed the door and hopped into the backseat where I was sitting.

I hated in the middle since I usually got annoyed from having to deal with people on each side of me but I had no choice because Axl would be joining us soon.

“Are you both comfy?” Duff asked peering at us through the rear view mirror.

“Yeah. Fine.” Izzy muttered spreading his legs out and getting comfy.

Duff started playing some punk music really loud and completely drowned us out.

I felt Izzy’s leg’s touch mine each time the car went over a bump.

I huffed and moved over a little so there could be some room between us but for some strange reason the universe did not want that

And all of a sudden Duff made an abrupt right turn practically throwing me onto Izzy’s lap face first.

Izzy smirked before pulling me up and stroking my hair asking if I was alright.

“Stop.” I spat shoving his hand away from me.

“Come on Maddy. Don’t be like that.” he cooed grabbing onto my thigh tightly.

“Duff’s not even paying attention to us. Can I get a kiss?”

“No! You’re the one who didn’t want me last night because I wasn’t your perfect little fuck buddy.”

“I never said we had to fuck. But we could still mess around.” he said grabbing a piece of loose hair to twirl around in his finger.

I looked towards the front of the car where Duff was driving and noticed when he made the turn that one of the things he had brought was blocking him from seeing the backseat.

“Are you guys good back there. I know I can’t see you guys but I hope you both are comfy.” Duff asked.

“Yeah we’re good.” Izzy replied giving me a grin.

I rolled my eyes and pushed away from him but he was persistent on keeping me close so he grabbed my thigh and pulled me right next to him.

“Why do you keep moving away from me?” he asked pushing my hair out of my face and cupping my cheek.

“Iz you literally told me last night that you didn’t want me because I was a virgin.”

“I only said that because you’re so naive Maddy.”

“I don’t think you’ll be happy if you loose it to me. I think you’ll regret it.” he remarked to me with a sigh.

“I won’t. I promise. I like you a lot Iz. I wouldn’t want to do it with anyone else.” I murmured looking into his eyes with a hopeful gaze.

“Take these off.” he whispered tugging at my tiny shorts.

“Are you crazy. What if Duff sees!” I panicked.

“He won’t Maddy. Just do what I say.” He casually shrugged as if he understood what he was doing.

I slowly peeled off my shorts making sure they pooled around my ankles just incase Duff wanted to look back but Izzy yanked them off my ankles.

He parted my thighs so that one of them was resting in between his thighs and the other was spread wide open.

He dipped his fingers into his mouth to wet them and reached down inside my underwear, running his wet fingers up and down my pussy before coming to my clit and rubbing it quickly and harshly in circles

"Izzy." I gasped involuntarily, bucking my hips against his fingers. I gazed up at him with lust-filled eyes and kissed him messy with my tongue, doing my best to leave a spit trail when I pulled back to look down at where he was touching me.

“You like that?" he muttered, leaning in closer to feel every jerk my body made in response to his finger movements.

“Maddy?” he asked.

“Y-Yes. I love it Izzy.” I moaned

“Maddy!”

“What Izzy. What’s wrong?” I asked looking up at him through my lashes.

“Maddy! Are you okay!” Izzy asked shaking my body to wake me up.

I jerked upwards crashing into Izzy’s forehead.

“Owww.” I hissed.

“Fuck. I was just trying to wake you up. You fell asleep out of nowhere so I got worried.” he groaned rubbing his forehead where I had hit.

“Sorry.” I apologized reaching out to help him but he rejected my hand and scooting back to where he was sitting.

Duff was still listening to his punk music with the radio blasting but there was nothing blocking his view of us?

Did I just hallucinate Izzy finger fucking me in the backseat just now?

I looked at him a little too hard earning a weird look from him which caused me to look away.

He was still ignoring me like he was when I came out to the kitchen in the morning.

I let out a frustrated sigh and scooted away from him and towards the window.

It wasn’t fair how he was treating me even though I was literally giving myself to him.

And it wasn’t even in a sexual way for me. It was more the fact that I finally found a man I felt safe with that I could trust with my body.

I guess he wanted something different.

Conflicted : Pt.5🎀

Maddy P.O.V

I woke up the next morning and took a shower throwing my clothes into the dirty laundry pile.

I couldn’t look at those panties anymore without thinking of what had happened last night between Izzy and I.

I went outside and to my surprise my brother was up early watching some cartoon called The Simpsons and eating a bowl full of cereal.

“Good Morning sleepyhead.” my brother said through his stuffed mouth.

I couldn’t help but feel a pang of guilt when I looked at Duff who had no clue what I was doing or thinking about one of his best friends.

I really liked Izzy and I wanted him to be my boyfriend.

“Do you know where Iz went? I woke up and all of his stuff was gone.” he asked coming around to place the cereal bowl in the sink.

“No clue.” I mumbled staring down at my nails that I was furiously picking at.

“Oh well. He’ll turn up sometime if not now.” my older brother shrugged grabbing his jacket and keys.

“Come on. Get dressed I’m finally taking you on that L.A tour.”

“Really?” I grinned real big.

At the end of the day I really missed my brother and I wanted to hang out with him alone, at least for one day aside from all the chaos surrounding his life.

“Duh. Now go get dressed.” he said.

Izzy P.O.V

I was at the usual diner the band would go to after we would perform when the door opened and I saw Duff and Maddy walk through.

Fuck. I was here with Angela.

“What’s wrong baby?” she purred in my ear grabbing at the side of my jean jacket.

“Nothing.” I said shrugging her off me.

Duff immediately spotted me and came running over with Maddy following behind like a lost lamb.

She really didn’t belong in L.A. She was too much of a good girl to be around here.

“Hey man! I didn’t know you would be here too. Why’d you leave the apartment in such a rush.” Duff asked while taking a seat down in the booth right next to Angela and I.

Maddy was just standing at the end of the booth awkwardly waiting for Duff to acknowledge her.

“Sis come sit next to me.”

“Actually wait why don’t you sit next to Iz because I always have to piss and it’s annoying asking people to get up for me.” he said climbing back out of the booth and tugging Maddy forward to sit in between Duff and I.

“Maddy scoot closer.” Duff whined practicing shoving Maddy into me.

She smelled so good.

Like strawberries and vanilla.

She was staring down at her hands which were in her lap and nervously played with them when I nonchalantly extended an arm around her.

“Get your arm away from my sis.” Duff groaned staring at my arm placement.

“Relax Mckagan. It’s barely even touching your precious baby sis.” I huffed rolling my eyes at his overprotective behavior.

“Oh so your Duff’s little sister.” Angela retorted.

“You look like a little child. How old even are you?” she laughed.

“I’m sixteen.” Maddy spat looking at her with an annoyed expression.

She was so cute when she got all mad. Her nose scrunched up and her lips squeezed back.

“Sixteen is still a child.” she joked blowing out her cigarette in front of the table.

“Yeah yeah. We get it.” Duff said clearly annoyed by Angela noticing Maddy’s discomfort.

“So what’s a little girl like you doing in L.A.” she asked.

“I’m here to visit my brother.” she said glancing at Duff who gave her a smile back.

“Hm.” she replied.

Duff and I started talking completely ignoring Angela and Maddy with our daily music discussions.

Which were arguing about who the better bands were.

The Rolling Stones or Led Zeppelin..

“I have to take a piss.” Duff quickly said scampering off to the restroom.

“Yeah me too.” Angela said getting up from her side of the booth and walking swiftly towards the bathroom.

I grabbed a cigarette from my jacket and lighted it up while chugging at the bottle of beer I had in front of me.

“You look pretty.” I said turning to face Maddy.

She had on these light wash blue shorts that would ride up everytime she moved around too much and a white babydoll top held together by two strings at the top of each shoulder.

We were sitting so close together that I could feel the warmth radiating off her body as my jean clad leg touched her bare one.

“Thanks.” she sheepishly blushed staring at her hands.

“Look at me Maddy.”

“You’re so fucking beautiful you know. Don’t hide from me.” I said bringing my finger to turn her face towards mine.

I could feel our lips brushing against each others but before I could close the gap.

She quickly pushed away from me and scooted away with a pout.

“I didn’t know you actually had a girlfriend.” she said crossing her arms with an angry expression.

“Angela’s just a fuck Maddy. She doesn’t mean anything to me.” I sighed taking a sip of my beer.

“What makes you think I’m different than her. For all I know I could just be some quick fuck for you as well.” she stated worriedly.

“You’re different. You should know that.” I told her scooting back to her again.

“I like you.” I breathed out.

“Really.” she asked looking up at me with those big brown eyes I fucking loved.

“Yeah.” I said before planting a big wet kiss on her pouty lips and pulling back slowly so that there was a line of spit still connecting us to each other.

“Izzy.” she giggled unable to hide her excitement.

“Izzy.” I mimicked playing with my hair and laughing sheepishly imitating her behavior.

“Stoppp.” she blushed.

“I’m only messing with you baby.” I laughed grabbing her and pulling her to my side .

“Iz stop. Duff will come out any minute now.”

“Don’t worry. Angela and him are quite busy at the moment.” I winked.

“Ew. Are you serious.” she groaned.

“Yeah. What did you think was taking so long.” I said shaking my head at her naivety.

I pulled her into my lap and continued to make out with her.

“You know…we could do the same.” I joked tickling her sides making her squeal.

“No. That’s dirty” she said looking into my eyes.

“What’s dirty baby?” I asked playing with her hair and twisting it tightly at the ends.

“Fucking in a dingy diner restroom.”

“You don’t like that? You wouldn’t want me to take you to the corner of the diner and into the bathroom to fuck the shit out of you?” I softly asked before tangling my hand in her hair and pushing her onto my lips.

“You make me so hard Maddy.” I groaned scooting her back a little so she could see the growing bulge underneath my black pants.

“Izzy stop. Not in front of everyone.” she quietly muttered before climbing off my lap and fixing her shorts.

“Okay guys. We should get out of here.” I heard a voice yell from across the diner.

It was Duff.

“Why?” I asked.

“Because the manager caught Angela and I in the bathroom.” he shyly admitted scratching the back of his head.

“Ughhh Duff stop. I don’t wanna hear it.” Maddy whined with a disgusted expression.

Duff and I burst out laughing as soon as we left the diner and made our way to his car.

“Wait where’s Angela?” Maddy asked.

“Don’t worry about her.” I shrugged hoping into the front seat.

“Your coming back to my place right?” Duff asked starting the car.

“Yeah. Your place.” I sighed leaning back into the seat and staring out the window.

I don’t know how to tell him that I like his little sister. I don’t think I ever can.

I hope Maddy can still be with me behind his back. I just hope she doesn’t crack under pressure one day and tell Duff about us.

Or else that’ll ruin Duff and I’s friendship forever and possibly even the band.

And I won’t let the band fall. Not even for Maddy.

Conflicted : Pt. 4🎀

Maddy P.O.V:

We all went back to my brothers apartment and spent the rest of the day hanging out and watching MTV.

Axl had left early since he had to go see Erin, his current girlfriend. I hadn’t met her, although I’d heard great things about her.

“I’ll see you all later and you too Maddy.” he said smirking at me before he left out the door.

“What was that all about?” Duff asked me particularly annoyed about the whole ordeal with Axl and I from earlier today.

“Nothing. Why do you always overreact Duff. Axl sees tons of women everyday I doubt I’m anything special.” I huffed coming to sit down next to Duff.

Izzy was sitting on the floor strumming his guitar softly while writing something down at the same time on his notepad.

“Are you writing a new song?” I asked softly.

“Yeah. I’m not done yet. So you can’t hear it.” he said without breaking eye contact with his fingers that were carefully strumming between cords.

“I didn’t ask.” I rolled my eyes slumping further into the couch.

Duff yawned next to me and almost fell asleep before jerking abruptly and hitting my face by accident.

“Ow!” I squealed holding my cheek.

“Maddy I’m so sorry!” Duff exclaimed grabbing my hands and apologizing.

“It’s okay you didn’t mean it.” I smiled letting him know I was okay.

“Are you sure? I can get you an ice pack.” my brother asked.

Duff was always looking after me since I was a kid so him acting like this even after all these years was comforting.

He always made sure that I was okay especially when mom wasn’t around to look after me.

“I’m sure Duff. I promise. You can go to sleep I know you’re tired.” I said giving him a side hug.

“Okay.” he said sheepishly smiling before heading off to his room and closing the door behind him.

“You guys have a close bond.” Izzy spoke from where he was sitting on the floor.

“Yeah. He’s been looking out for me ever since we were little.” I replied.

Izzy got up from the floor and suddenly made his way to the spot Duff left empty on the couch.

“How old are you again?” he asked scooting closer to where I was sitting at the other end of the couch.

“16.” I whispered, suddenly meek from how close he was sitting next to me.

“No wonder Duff is so overprotective over you. You’re sixteen and you look like that.” he said before leaning back and going back to strumming his guitar lightly.

“What do you mean look like that.” I asked turning my body to face towards him this time.

“I mean you look hot.” he nonchalantly stated like he’d said it all the time to a bunch of girls.

He felt around his pocket and pulled out a fresh pack of Malboros before lighting one up and exhaling out.

“You know those are bad for you.” I said scrunching my nose at the smell.

“Good.” he sarcastically replied uninterested in hearing a lecture or so he thought.

He went back to strumming his guitar not missing any beats.

“So when do you think you’ll be done with the song your writing?” I ask again hoping to make small talk with Izzy.

He takes another slow drag from his cigarette before exhaling and turning to face towards me.

“When you shut the fuck up and let me work.” he said before popping the cigarette back into his mouth and strumming again.

I suddenly felt hot tears building up in my eyes from his harsh behavior.

“I was just trying to have a conversation.” I said with a shaky voice.

His expression read somewhat guilty and annoyed at my sudden tears.

“Sorry.” he shrugged still not letting go of the guitar strings between his fingers.

I felt hurt that he wasn’t paying attention to the fact that he had just made me cry that I roughly slapped his hand away from the guitar so he would look at me.

“What the fuck Maddy.” he growled.

I didn’t think about what I did next and kissed him abruptly on the lips.

“Maddy what are you doing.” he asked pulling back from me and looking at me with a confused expression.

I felt very humiliated all of a sudden and immediately retreated back to my room with a fresh new set of tears streaming down my face.

Of course he wouldn’t kiss me back when he had thousands of other better looking women to comfort him in bed.

He wouldn’t even look at me if Duff wasn’t my brother.

I would just be another childish face to him.

“Maddy open the door.” Izzy said leaning against my bedroom door.

“No. Go away.” my voice cracked.

“Please baby. Open the door.” he softly whispered making sure Duff wasn’t listening.

I didn’t know if it was the tone of his voice or the fact that he called me his baby that made me walk over and open the door.

He came, swiftly closing the door behind him and locking it for good measure.

“Why did you lock the door Izzy. Duff will see and-

He picked me up before I could finish and placed me on the bed in front of him sitting me down while he was standing upright, having me lock my legs around him.

“What’s wrong. I thought you wanted this.” he whispered in my ear tracing a finger down my body and stopping at my pajama shorts with a tiny bow against the front of them.

“This present all for me.” he smirked sliding them down my legs until they were on the ground.

I wish I hadn’t worn these pink frilly panties and some other sexier ones.

The truth was that I didn’t own any sexy lingerie or anything.

My mother always bought me the same embarrassing pattern ones like flowers or boy shorts since she thought I shouldn’t be wearing grown women underwear.

“Did you buy these yourself?” Izzy asked tracing over my pink panties.

“No. My mom thinks I shouldn’t wear grown women panties so she buys me these dumb ones.” I blurted out without thinking twice of what I just said.

“Your mom still buys your underwear?” he laughed loudly like he had just heard the best joke ever.

“Yes so what.” I huffed trying to push him off me to no avail.

“It’s cute. Like you.” he said kissing my cheek before pulling off of me completely.

“Aren’t you gonna t-touch me or something.” I mumbled stuttering over my words at how nervous I was about the whole situation.

“Did you want me to?” he asked uninterested and looking over at the dresser that I had newly decorated prior to moving into Duff’s guest bedroom with pictures of Duff and I from back home in Seattle.

“I like you Izzy.” I blurted out.

He put the picture down he was currently fixated on and turned back to look at me.

“Maddy your Duff’s little sister.”

“So what. You don’t like me just because I’m Duff’s little sister?” I spat.

“Do you just do this to every girl then?”

“What are you talking about?” he asked coming closer.

“You just came into my bedroom to what, look at my family pictures and have a chat. Or did you come in here to look at my panties to get off and leave me hanging like some dumbass.” I angrily shouted.

“Be fucking quiet or else Duff will wake up.” he growled grabbing my arm a bit tight.

“Let me go. I’m humiliated enough standing in front of you with only my panties on!” I retorted ripping out of his grasp and bending down to grab my pajama shorts.

But before I could he grabbed me onto his waist and pulled me into a rough french kiss.

I kissed him back as passionately as his wet kiss hoping to catch up to his speed.

He grabbed onto my hips and pushed me further into him making me feel him against my panties which were now damp.

“Izzy.” I whimpered as he trailed wet kisses down my neck and towards my cleavage.

“This what you wanted huh.”

“Just wanted a chance alone with me to do this.” he groaned grabbing onto my hips and guiding them up and down his covered length.

“Y-yes.” I moaned loving the feeling of his covered manhood rubbing against my wet panties.

He suddenly let go of me letting me fall onto the bed with a bounce before adjusting himself and fixing his jacket.

“Sorry Maddy. I can’t be doing this behind his back.” he said before leaving the room.

“Izzy wait-

But before I could have the chance to continue Izzy grabbed his things and left out the apartment door.