Lacking - Blog Posts
Have so much anxiety that my anxiety has anxiety.
So many emotions and no way to express them and the numbness that comes with that.
Paralyzed anxiety.
Paralyzed by the options.
Paralyzed by what I want.
Paralyzed by what my parents want.
Paralyzed by what I am.
Paralyzed by what is right.
paralyzed.
Christmas Eve
Peaceful
But I wish you were here
All wrapped up and under the tree for me to find
Adults making the magic happen
Running around and a bit frantic
Santa feeling a tad mad and rundown
I wonder what you are doing,
Where you are,
What you look like now
The mashed potatoes are being made
Church plans are being made
Stores of toys are full of adults making a last minute raid
Do I ever cross your mind
When you walk under the mistletoe
Or has time crossed me out like a wrong answer
Dishes being washed and put away
Showers being taken
Cleanliness taking place
Do you feel like something is missing?
Peaceful but lacking
In the fragments we posses of each others hearts