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@bbgbonald @a-library-of-old omg you guys should ask me these
Wanna be nosy? Here's your chance.
0: Height 1: Virgin? 2: Shoe size 3: Do you smoke? 4: Do you drink? 5: Do you take drugs? 6: Age you get mistaken for 7: Have tattoos? 8: Want any tattoos? 9: Got any piercings? 10: Want any piercings? 11: Best friend? 12: Relationship status 13: Biggest turn ons 14: Biggest turn offs 15: Favorite movie 16: I’ll love you if 17: Someone you miss 18: Most traumatic experience 19: A fact about your personality 20: What I hate most about myself 21: What I love most about myself 22: What I want to be when I get older 23: My relationship with my sibling(s) 24: My relationship with my parent(s) 25: My idea of a perfect date 26: My biggest pet peeves 27: A description of the girl/boy I like 28: A description of the person I dislike the most 29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend 30: What I hate the most about work/school 31: What your last text message says 32: What words upset me the most 33: What words make me feel the best about myself 34: What I find attractive in women 35: What I find attractive in men 36: Where I would like to live 37: One of my insecurities 38: My childhood career choice 39: My favorite ice cream flavor 40: Who wish I could be 41: Where I want to be right now 42: The last thing I ate 43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately 44: A random fact about anything
Happy new year I'm dumping glitter confetti all over your blog! 🎉🎉🎉🎉✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️
OMG YAY
Wall anon here to say you're doing great and I'm proud of you even if you feel like you haven't done enough or somethin lately
youre literally the best ever omgg screaming crying /pos
YPU DID THAT SO FAST IM- RABUDLY EATS IT
I am also coming out to reveal I am wall anon because you seem cool and know we cannot become better friends wiry me always on anon 🧍♂️
Aniwai ilysm pookie that fanfictipn rizz worked on me🤭/p (dms totally aren't like always open if you ever wanna chat hahah jk..unless?/hj)
i knew you were my wall anon bc youre always the first to like my posts when theyre requests <3 (i stalk my own notes religiously) im happy you like my writing and i have to feed wall anon something so i write fast asf lol and ofc i wanna be friends with you, you seem super fun tbh!! my dms are always open so ye!!
BAHAHAH AS SOON AS I SENT THAT REQ I SAW YOUR MISSING ME POST IM- BAHAAHHAAH I truly do have worlds best timing but hi pookie love and miss you too ❤️/p- wall anon
OMGOMG HIII I MISSED YOU SM POOKIE ILYSM /p
Pookie I can't keep defending you like this (in ref to the last post) 😔- living in ur walls anon
HELP I FORGOT ABOUT THAT IM SCREAMING😭😭😭😭
born to be an eepy princess forced to be a sigma alpha male 🐺🐺🐺
hey! just a little update, since schools started back up i wont be able to do requests as fast but ill still try to do them regularly when i get them!
I haven't drawn Mello in a while... never posted on here... I'm proud of it (though it's directly copied off of a Manga panel) this was roughly 7hrs of work totally worth it, he's going on my wall for sure! ❤❤❤
Little known fact about me... I'm a Lokean, I have been for over a year.. I never mentioned that here, I know.. 🤭
Long ass spiritual ramble under the cut
I've been occupied with other things recently (namely getting a job for the first time) and I haven't had much mental energy to interact with him... so as reconciliation (ofc he demands that I don't need to apologize or anything but I did anyway) I made a new picture to go on his altar...
I also bought a statue (it was almost $150... RIP to my wallet 😭😭😭😭) it looks absolutely beautiful from the product pictures and it's handmade, reviews are good too, so I'm not too mad at the price.. it was the only one I could find that looked similar to how he usually appears to me... funny enough as I was browsing etsy looking for statues while I was taking a break from sketching, I said to him out loud... "damn.. it's all viking dudes with beards... none of these look enough like a twink"... and what do you know, the very next page, I found one that looks a hell of a lot more twink-like.. he even holds a rose which has special meaning to my spiritual journey with him. (First sign I asked him to show me and is my go to for signs now, I laid a bunch of fake roses on his altar too) I genuinely believe he put that one in front of me 😅
I... I painted him again 🥺👉👈
I'm sorry he's just too pretty not to..
Simping has extended to Elven kings, apologies lmao
Still simping for this boy... literally can't stop drawing him... help 🙃
Here's The reference btw...
Haha I'm a simp I'm sorry 🤣
Also Def should have used brown to outline all the skin.. hands kinda blend into eachother... like one big amorphous blob oops.. 😅
Did a little doodle a couple days ago 🥺👉👈
Oh oops forgot to post this here lol
She'll be up as an example on my commission page soon
Make sure to go over to my ko-fi
Hey,
As a lot of you probably know... Twitter is a disaster 🙃
I was posting art there for a while then took a break and I was just thinking I'd get back to it when... bam... It got taken over and now we're here...
So... Like many other artists, I'm using Tumblr again, this time, not for fanfiction, but art.
So I will describe my art journey and where I want to end up for those unfamiliar.
I have been creating art since I was little, I never stopped drawing since I could pick up a pen... but I only got serious about art after I watched the anime series, Black Butler at 12 years old. I started out with colored pencils and pens... sharpies and Crayola pencils plus a ton of cheaper branded colored pencils
Nowadays, I mainly work in watercolours. I find Painting very relaxing, though I'm sort of on and off working on digital art... which I will post periodically.
In the future, I really would love to be a concept artist for a game company... or work commissions! Either would be very fun, I think! I want to go to university for art to really hone my skills and look more legit on a resume ofc.
Here is my most recent piece which will be my profile picture on all art related social media from now on
I try to create a finished piece once every 2 weeks, but I want to try increasing that to once every week!
Oh, yes andI should probably mention, I do have a Ko-Fi set up in case anyone likes what I'm doing.. I will be open to commissions there in the coming weeks, I will update here when they are ready and open!
H!
I'm back from the dead!
And I have things to talk about 🤭
Last month into this month has been fucking wild for me!
I was connected to a girl my age through my therapist, her name is Sam. We've really hit it off and I now consider her a friend.
Then... for some reason I felt confident enough to make a dating profile.... and
AGAINST ALL ODDS I MET SOMEONE.
Like I live in a town over an hour away from any cities.. but he only lives a half hour out of town... so not a super long drive.
Anyway, we've seen eachother in person twice but I fell so deeply in love with the guy.. and I can tell he feels the same about me... the way he looks at me.... How he talks... He is also a total romantic.. much like myself, so it's been going really good! I'm hoping we'll get to see eachother again next week.
But I never thought I'd ever get into a romantic relationship... if I'm being honest
Don't read on if you're easily triggered by mental health issues and/or sexual themes.
I never intended to be around this long... I was literally planning on ending it all shortly after my 18th birthday... But for some reason... I kept going.. and I'm super happy that I did, otherwise, I wouldn't have ever met my friend and boyfriend.
Seriously...
Things are finally going right for me after so many goddamned years of being alone, isolated unable to find any real connection and incredibly miserable because of it...
I have finally realized I am not unlikeable, I'm not worthless and I can find friends. And for the rest of 2022 and into 2023, I will work as hard as I can to not let my anxiety control me anymore
My next big leap comes in November. I will be looking for my first job!
And here comes the part where I gush about my boyfriend
I now have this dream now where I'm settling down with my boyfriend.... we move into a little apartment in one of the cities nearby (in fact that dream could very well come true... because we both want to go to the same city for college) and we settle into a peaceful domestic life together.... hopefully with cats!
Ok... but like honestly this guy is literally the one I've been dreaming of. He's very attractive and emotionally available, and he doesn't judge me for who I am! I neglected to mention here, but I have discovered that I am agender and my pronouns are they/them... I live in probably one of the most conservative provinces in Canada and to make it worse, I'm in a small town with like 4 churches of the same exact brand of extremely homophobic and transphobic Christianity... I fully expected him to lose interest in me. But no, It hasn't affected how he thinks of me. and he is very careful to respect my pronouns...
He's also very funny (which I really love in people... I can't be around someone who is super serious all the time) I mean... when I last saw him on Monday, we were at my place, playing around (in an adult sort of way) and he discovered my toys
One of them had a suction cup at the base, so he goes and sticks it on the wall a few times... then he sticks it on his forehead looks at me and says "I'm dildo man" we laugh about it together.... and he goes to pull it off his face only to discover it has suctioned pretty hard to his face, so I help him by wedging my finger under the suction cup and lifting it off...
and HE HAS A BIG ASS BRUISE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS FOREHEAD... We're still laughing our asses off... me almost pissing myself with laughter as we frantically search for way to get rid of bruises and hickeys online... we try the fork method, icing it... everything we can do, nothing works.. so we decide to just take a bath to clean up before my parents get home from a trip they were on (at this point my parents don't know we've had sex... and I wasn't exactly ready to tell them) While we're in the bath, my parents get home and my dad calls out to me... I fucking panic and we get out and dress at breakneck speed.
My parents brought home some takeout and my boyfriend stayed for dinner... he met my mom for the first time... but damn... coming downstairs after that was... super awkward... but thankfully my parents aren't the type to be bothered by that kind of thing, all they needed to know was that we used protection (which we did ofc)
It's funny though, he really gets along well with my dad.. Maybe it's their sense of humour. Or maybe the fact they are both quite talkative..
But damn.....
This guy is special.. and I hope we last for years, decades... life even...
And done.. Sorry about all that.. just had to write this all down somewhere.. It's really hard to contain my happiness right now.
Ok, I know no one asked but....
Here's a preview of an OC I'm currently working on!
I worked too hard on him to let him just fade into my sketchbook... so I'm gonna push him on Tumblr.
His name is Everett Bathory and he's a vampire guitarist for a band of ghouls lol. I'm not at home for another week so I can't finish them entirely yet, but I'll probably post sketches and backstories while I wait to get back to my art supplies at home!
Idk if anyone knows that I'm Obey Me trash, but.. I am happy to announce that Lucifer will now indefinitely be wearing this on my home screen. And no, I do not regret my decision to waste grim and other materials on getting this outfit because words cannot describe how much I am LIVING for Lucifer in a unicorn onesie.
Now.. the question is... should it be my new profile picture here?
I did it!
Ok... So I know probably like no one cares... but I just got one of my two vaccines today (Specifically the Pfizer vaccine) and...
I somehow didn't have a panic attack!
Like usually I'm a crying mess no matter what size of needle as long as they're the hypodermic kind. The mere thought of them freaks me out.
But somehow... I just sat there, in a kinda flimsy white chair between a nurse and my dad, distraction in hand (that distraction was an episode of JJBA) I had only just pressed play and dropped my arm, felt a her wipe my arm with an alcohol pad and then a tiny pinch... and... bam.. done.. didn't even get 5 seconds into it. No tears were shed, no public embarrassment!
I AM SO FUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF, I FEEL LIKE A GOD OR SOMETHING!!
Anyway so apparently my arm is supposed to ache or something soon so it's gonna be less awesome when that happens..
I'll be posting more headcanons and stuff soon I just dipped back into mysme, so I'll probably briefly go back to my roots and write a couple Vanderwood and minor trio headcanons for old time's sake!