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I'm on Words of Radiance right now and I gotta say,

I just love Kaladin, like he has a mysterious past that he isn't interested in talking about, and he has like no respect for anyone who hasn't personally earned it, and clearly wants to be left alone forever. But he sucks at getting people to ignore him.

Like first of all, he looks everyone in the eyes, even people so far above his station. He has an impeccable posture and presence at all times, even without considering the whole stormlight thing which apparently can make you look prettier/more saturated in the world. He has slave scars marking him as dangerous and just pretends that he's basically of a station to light-eyes. And he barely even remembers to call the King 'your majesty', it's an afterthought at best and if the King believed that he actually had authority Kaladin would probably be dead. (Of course if the King was a stronger personality than maybe Kaladin would have shown him respect).

He wants to be left alone to die but has such strong sense of honor and empathy that he ends up caring about anyone that ends up in his vicinity for more than 5 min if they need help in anyway. He adopts Renarin grudgingly likes/respects Adolin even when Adolin drives him absolutely insane. He does his absolute best at any job he is given no matter how hard it makes his life or how many toes he steps on.

And he cannot hide his skills to save his life. So far, about half way through the book he's not terrible at hiding the stormlight, except that he is and the people around him just have more to worry about (like dying) when he has to use it.

He's a very very good surgeon even though he didn't actually have the chance to formally study, and when literally anyone calls him on it, he's just like 'I learned field medicine' - sir, you think field medicine is a good excuse for knowing more about epilepsy than the light-eyed noble that HAS the epilepsy??? Really?? Like are you even trying anymore? You're using words that no one else has ever heard of and you are teaching everyone around you field medicine.

He will literally never be able to blend in ever in his life.

I love him.

Now the poll is over so let's take a look at each angsty ship.

Murther:

Now, everything i know about Murther is from memes and texts posts and headcannons. So I might not know much about the show but I have pretty good idea about the ship.

The angst come from the secrets and the entanglement due to destiny. Being two half of the same coin that never really got to be one

And obviously the ending. Aurther died soon after finding out the truth i think. So we also never got them to be together being truthful. Essentially, it ended right when it was gonna get good. They were good for each other. They loved each other with such softness and inevitability.

But now one of them is dead. Leaving  the other to live on alone which is one the worst outcomes out there. It's angsty but not toxic. They should have been together but alas.

Johnlock:

My idea of ship comes from BBC Sherlock. Like Murther, Sherlock and John are actually good for each other. AND they get a happy ending. As angsty as it gets. There is a positive ending. They got together. They healed each other. They were what each of them wanted.

The angst comes from sacrifice (Sherlock) and denial (John) They are the most important people in each other's life.

Their ship can be summarized in this phrase.

"I will go to hell for you, I will come with you."

However, their angst also comes from codependency. They are good for each other but they also fall apart without each other. They need each other. Their presence don't just make them better, their absence also destroy each other. It's the need! The amount of need is proportional to the amount of angst you get.

Destiel: speaking of need. This ship is defined by need. They are the best version of each other when they are together and worst version of each other when they are apart. They hate their own self but find salvation in loving each other and caring for people.

They understand each other. Dean would fight anything and everything to protect Cas but Cas won't let him and will stay in purgatory away from dean to keep Dean safe.

They are each other's strengths. They are also each other's weakness and those around them know it.

Cas will defy his purpose, his existence, his faith in God, already has, for Dean. And Dean, becomes a monster when you take Cas out of the equation. But he'd still pray, he'd still beg, he'd fight through everything to get his angel back and they even has 'i need you' stand it for I love you and I just jejdmsjnsndbbsbbebsh

Hannigram:

now we are leaving the angsty romance waters and entering the self destructive toxic love waters.

This ship is blatant. They know there is love under that obsession and vulnerability. But they are just too fucked up. Their I love you Is 'I see you'

Hannibal and Will. They both go through life feeling alone. Singular creatures. Then they come across each other and they are no longer alone. They clash they destroy each other in their love and obsession for each other. And at the end. Will brings out the selflessness out of Hannibal and Hannibal brings out the animal in Will.

Their whole story is poetic and they aren't letting each other go. Hannibal is so fucking scared of vulnerability that comes with love. He tests Will. Hoping that will won't see him. That Will will only see what he projects, like everyone else. But damn he is bared. And Will tries to deny himself over and over again but he is hopeless. Hannibal tries to eat him and Will tries to get him killed. It's their stuff and at the end. Will accepts the monster inside and kills them. And finally Hannibal gets honest and let's Will destroy him.

Finally we have Kalmoash:

Their story hasn't come to an end. AND I am not sure how Moash's arc will end. But the obsessive destruction is there. They are too, two sides of the same coin. Kaladin took a path that Moash could not.

Kaladin had people he could rely upon. Moash was encouraged into destruction. Now the choice was his but that doesn't negate that at their breaking point Kaladin had friends and people who cared in the past that gave him the strength and positive outlook to make the right choice while Mosh lost the only family he had and his whole life, lived with distain. Then at his weakest moment had odium.

And Moash loves Kaladin while kaladin is our local Aro Ace fly Boi. And he calls moash his closest. (Used to.) And as angry as Moash was, He still says to kaladin that if you say no I will stop. Its the  momentum and series of wrong choices that separates them.

And even after giving everything up. Moash still has one thread that ties him to his humanity. (I know how that feels and maybe that's why Moash is the only character that I feel any kinship to.)

Their conflict comes from the fact that they are bound by their own thinking.

Moash in his skewed way, helping the man he loves. Odium wants Kaladin. Moash knows that. He also knows that Kaladin would rather be dead. The servitude of odium is no life so he wants to kill kaladin to save him a worse fate. But he also knows that no one can kill kaladin. So he baits Kaladin to kill himself. (Peak toxicity).

In his mind he is saving Kaladin and Kaladin i thinks hate only cause he can't accept the other things that he feels.

Now so far Kaladin hasn't tried to save Moash. But now maybe he will try and reach out. I doubt it but damn I want moash to get better. Become a radiant or even a bondsmith. Better yet.A SKYBREAKER.

Their relationship is essentially. "You betrayed me I have to hate you or I will love you" "I hate you I will save you by killing you." They have such strong passion for each other and it will destroy them.

But I am hopeful that sunshine Boi Renarin can save them.

Let the war begin

Moash should be a shybreaker. (And not cause of justice is blind thing. His blindness should just be blindness. An injury not a punishment)

Teft was although a friend. Was an enemy combatant.

Yes he is vindictive. His greatest flaw is that he is gullible. He is loyal until he isn't.

And he seems to get betrayed by every ideal he swear.

But in the end. He didn't, as much got betrayed by people, as much as he got betrayed by the institution.

There was simply nothing he could do once the law was thrown out the window. And vengeance is just another face of justice.

So having him as a skybreaker who is devoted to an ideal and at the end becoming law itself seems a better arc. And having been on side of the vengeance he can judge better. And unlike nale, Moah isn't a machine. He wants to be but he isn't. He understands compassion and forgiveness.

He is one of my favorite characters. It would be interesting to see whom he chooses as his third ideal.

Alternatively.

He can be an awakened radiant (corrupted) As he is shunned by both human and singer. Seems like he would fit within the awakened truthwatchers. And purely cause it be funny. He hated renarin. Or hated the idea of him.

But renarin is such a sunshine boy if anyone can make moash see past his hateded its renarin.

He should not be dead. He should live and learn and grow and grow old.

Not as a cautionary tale but as a reminder that we can make better choices.

Stormlight Spoilers

Hmmm…. Okay so I have a weird theory stuck in my head. It’s- bad and doesn’t make sense, especially because Renarin has already demonstrated a traditional Surge, but: While reading, I keep getting the vibe that Renarin’s spren bond is wrong. I don’t fully understand why, but I keep thinking he’s perhaps bonded to a renegade void spren.

The numbers in Words of Radiance were ABSOLUTELY done by Renarin. I don’t doubt it for a second. I’m so confident about this. But… well we know the two surges of the Truthwatchers, and future prediction was NOT one of them. Beyond that, when Shallan is fighting the Unmade in Urithiru, it mentions trying to take Pattern’s place, which all but STATES non-Radiant spren can form bonds with humans… ergo, it’s feasible for Renarin to have bonded one of the Void Spren, which would facilitate the future stuff!

Anywho, that’s that! I think it’s likely I’m wrong, but could be interesting!

Puppies on Roshar

Malata the Pharaoh Hound

Adolin the Golden Retriever & Renarin the Labrador Retriever

Veil the Greyhound & Shallan the Shiba Inu

Szeth the Chihuahua

Kaladin the Tervuren & Tien the Corgi

Navani the Poodle & Dalinar the Sarplaninac

Mayalaran the Chinese Crested Dog

Syphrena the Cavalier Spaniel

Pattern the ...?